Goodbye 27 You Have Been Suicidal

I think I was just feeling a little worried that it stole my focus the moment I turned 27. As a huge fan of iconic rock star like Jimmy Hendrix and the disturbed genius no other king of grudge Kurt Cobain. I got into this perspective that when I reach this age I will be expecting struggles in life.

Must have been influenced by my idols but somehow I can relate some of my struggles to them. Yes some moments were hard and full with hindrance. It's quite hard to imagine how I was able to juggle all those random messed up stuffs.

There were moments that I whispered to my self is this really my down fall?. When doubts filled my mind and the capabilities that I can't do. Since all that you done in order to reach certain level of your plans were just diminished in an instant.

I was breathing hard after each piece of my plans were slowly falling into different consequences. The agony the rippled on my thoughts, crushed my emotions into shattered bits. The unexpected just happened and I didn't know what hit me.

As I reflect on the things that I have done. There were true remorse that I found out, Why I was careless about it? I was merely selfish and impractical about the decision that I made before. And now I am paying the price.

There was no doubt I was in suicidal state because of confusions and complicated thoughts. As I try to grab and familiarize all the scenarios to come up with possibilities that I can prepare for. To outwit and outlast this storm takes balls and fortitude both mentally and physically.

As I tried to understand why all these things happened I realized they happened for a reason. What you did on the past has something to do on what will happen in the future. This makes sense as things are connected to everything. You can't just rely on luck alone for it's a sweet lie.

27 you have been suicidal and I am glad I surpassed you. I your curse and other bad lucks would be gone as I peel off my self from you. Now as I gain momentum I will make sure I will enjoy my journey.


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Edwin Valero dies!!!

Venezuelan boxing superstar Edwin Valero hanged himself after he was arrested by authorities for the death of his wife. His wife was found dead in a hotel room last Sunday and reportedly, Valero told the hotel's security guard that he killed his wife.

A day after his wife's death, Valero took off his own life by hanging himself in his prison cell. Another inmate alarmed the on duty guards of the prison and immediately put him down. Valero were still breathing when he was put down but the personnel couldn't do enough to save him.

Valero has been struggling from drugs and alcohol according to his manager and has been into lots of troubles concerning his vices. He was also having troubles with authorities due to assault of his wife who is 24 years old and was charged last March for harassing hospital personnel where his wife was being treated.

Valero holds an excellent record of 27-0-0 all won by knockout. He was rumored to fight Philippines Manny Pacquiao right after MP defeated Miguel Cotto. Valero is famous about his tattoo which features the Valenzuelan flag and President Hugo Chavez.

The loss of Valero has been a shocking event to all the boxing enthusiast around the world. They were stunned and couldn't believe that it has ended like the report said. They were expecting so much and a lot from Valero whom record were never stained.

Rest in peace, Edwin Valero.